(0) I had a good past few days. I don't want "the dream" of you trying to control what I notice as though I were delicate yet older.
(1) The fact that I'm writing @ this now.
(2) Making fun of cute boys I like because you can't do it.
(3) What happens is they want to measure how much they can affect my life, like by putting clicks in my recordings.
(4) My mom came in and sounded like she said it'll be it for her at 80 because there was something I did you don't do, which annoys me Ellen's worrying or even thinking she's any Jewish at all!! So, then I became violent and restless, which leads me to believe I must partake in physical activities, tough they won't let me do gymnastics.
(5) A black girl was by me at a thing I watched today, and she kept saying, "Hmph," and acted annoying, like my mom was a nigger. I looked @ her, and nigger came to mind.. as always does with black people to me, not that I think of it each time I see them. Then, she acted like she was on top of me racially, like I couldn't get away with it. I moved up when the film was over to the speaker, and some other ladies were nitpicking with me but not the speaker. It was like I wasn't even who I Was. You don't even have a good definition for Asian like I do of Native American. It irritates me when anyone picks at me to anything they made up @ me and my race. It's just an irritation from it.
(6) So, these messages were from Ellen DeGeneres. Isn't that a nasty sorta pie in your face way of taking out your racial whims on another person? Then, Ellen gets nice and threatens me like she won't talk to me as much if I get mad at something that really hurts me. That's annoying, I don't wanna worry @ that when I'm a good fan of the show and her. She does these things, though, that's why I diet, that's why I got roller blades. I need something else like ballet or tumbling, but I'm gonna do voiceover now and that's a lot of money, October-December. I need to rearrange my room so I'm not like fumbling when I record my attempts at singing again. I can get exercise videos and plan to go to the gym. It's really a hassle getting ready for and recovering from physical activity. I'm always behind on laundry|ironing. I can't sit down and read. It's too bad I got so tired of my dieting. You get fat fast on a diet if you quit, with me at least. That sounds like something you've heard of..