Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I sorta..

..spazzed it at them as I passed, maybe just partly me dunno

Problem

I passed some people and got upset and thought of my dad in a tacky way.. but I guess we had a mutual feeling.

Mad

Stop hinting threats I'm in trouble later when I'm not looking.

I feel so gross eating mac so often.

Problem

I sorta let go and stopped complaining in my mind.

Nap

I need 1.

Problem

So, what, Ellen constantly has me uncomfortable?  She wishes to hurt me?  I mean, she thinks I deserve to be punished?

Problem

I said to stop judging me.  You *beep*

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Stop telling me I'm bad..Ellen

Let's start using words like worthless without cringing every time it happens.

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Ellen, stop being mean.  You are being mean cuz I have a mouth.

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Why do you keep bothering me!

ELLEN IS THAT YOU YES IT IS STOP

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I don't wanna go to the Ellen show to fight.. but I sort out things here.  I just meant that I thought it really was Ellen and that if I said I don't think so I'd get made fun of.  I think slowly sometimes or do things that way, sometimes..

Remember

When people were all about if you deserved something even if you were currently considered perfect?  Like you didn't deserve some things for some reason?

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Ellen, you are not enough fun..  You spread negative energy cuz of your racial selfishness.  You wanna be more stimulated, and I can't feel good..

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Ellen would be nicer to her kid, and I don't want her to treat my kid how she treats me.

At Least

I'm not still mad.  Ugh, but you know I feel like I'm shit.. to everyone

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Why do Britney and Ellen not have friends..  waiting for a bomb to tick off

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Why does Ellen think she's ahead culturally, like I can't enjoy myself!

Well

I guess ya'll don't see what you shit on me.

**PlaNs**

I am gonna do Vocal Performance @ Seminole Community College, Orlando, FL.  xp  Calls to make.

So, 2 days a week a gym class there and working out, with their theory which is probably each day and piano 3.

My mom was gonna have me go to like shelters to get help all day for you know like once a week as they said possible.

So, I still wanna catch all of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" but not as much otherwise.. I do like Bethenny, but I mean it's a lot for starters.  I actually sometimes watch her more than once.

Well

I get upset because things have happened.. I didn't think I was nasty, but yea I felt bad..

Wow

Ellen, fess up for what you did.

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Problem

So, another coincidence with a boy I like from England..  What's that for?  You made me upset, I can't trust you.

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Too Bad

I was so upset.  What could I do?  I was like in convulsion, and no one would give in to me..

Stupid

Yea, cuz sometimes it's for the opposite reason-

Why do people do it like that?

Something I Have to Say

Who cares what led to what.  That's just stupid.

Problem

I said not to elect to hurt my mom.

Go away Tim Ellen can do what she wants regardless of you.

Well

Sarah Brightman, I hope you do have a good reason for going into outer space because that was what I was thinking.  I'm a little outta it..

Well

I know she doesn't just wanna have fun..

Well

My mom has a problem.  I shouldn't have a curfew and be on a pill.  She was mean to me 1st.

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White people shit @ technology.  I am white, though, so go away.

Problem

Stop saying you made me feel inappropriately.  :{

What's with all the clicks!!!!

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Ellen makes inside jokes @ me.  I never told her to pay attention to me.

Look, I don't have a problem.  Why should I watch your show..?  I do wanna watch it.  But why?  Cuz yer ***y?

What are all these noises now!!  Stop ruining things for me and being suggestive and stimulating.  Learn to talk, dummies.

Problem

Ellen laughs at you if you say oh it wasn't her.  What's so funny @ this?  I don't wanna see anyone!  I just leave my room to fuckin' eat!

It's not that..

You're just picking at me for what I posted.  WHAT'S WRONG.  IT'S NOT ILLEGAL.  Like what you do.

Everyone around here threatens me and has nothing to offer.

Why's my mom so mean?  It's all because of Ginny's daughter, I thought something funny and now my mom is always mean.  She made me really mad inside and I had to do something.

Problem

Stop irritating me.

You're just mean and nasty.

GET IT I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS ALL ALONG SO SHUT UP

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I don't think it's any 1 person, but I was pretty upset and bet you just took it your way.

Ugh

Anyone who thinks Ellen is insulting come here.  I am not feeling well.

STOP WATCHING ME AND TESTING ME

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I SAID TO LEAVE ME ALONE

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I swear I am channeling Ellen as being rude @ things like race and my dad's age..  What's your problem?  I don't accept it.

Sorry, I didn't wanna say this, but I guess I talked @ what I was feeling.  My mom kept on doing stuff.  Oh Ellen don't be dumb and say that was me just shut up I'm tired of posting this..

Why don't you get this straight?

You're the 1s who started it.  I am getting uncomfortable.  I am being told this is because of something I did.  It's not.  Do you want me to prove it?

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I keep getting noises and stuff in my room telling me I'm my dad in a bad way and I'm a girl!  I'm probably better than him in ways I like!  WHAT ARE YOU.

STOP.  You just reacted again.

Someone stop my mom she's crazy.

Problem

So, Ellen is getting mad at me for things that aren't my fault.  Don't you go in and single out to hurt my mom.

If you wanna

talk @ Mrs. DeGeneres you should just do it.

Well

I didn't mind it at 1st, but now she's getting back and I find myself fresh again complaining on the blog.  I found Ellen thought it funny.  Look, why do I have to worship you?

Problem

You even act more and more like her mom is mad.  Just quit, I don't even care what you say.  You're just gonna make me think of some curse word when thinking @ Mrs. DeGeneres.

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Look, Ellen, I don't wanna play suggest things to Christina to be safe, who did this.  My mom is lying to me and doesn't care if she's the 1 who's mean and makes me upset and leaves me with nothing I can do about it.  Just forget it and see if you can move on with your life.

I see you on your show think it's okay if I m.. and get m..

Do you wanna lose your dignity and get called tacky all the time??  What, are you suddenly better than everyone?  Who do you think I am??  I will stick to what I say.

She might not have done it, but she thinks it's funny.

I'm pretty mad, I feel like I'm m.. and no one cares.  If someone did, they'd have to stop talking to me.

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Problem

Ellen pretends she's cooler than me, like my aunts's friends.

Ah Ah

What aren't we learning @ the South from Ellen DeGeneres?  She just knows she's in and has a good mom..

Extra! Extra!

Extra!  Extra!  Read all about it!

I have interesting accent fluctuations since seeing Sarah Brightman, her concert here.  It's kinda saucy and ***y even in ways.  I mean like exciting even if laid back.

So..

..what, you catch me tacky and that means I'm not good enough?  Lots of people do that.

Actually

I guess my friend is mad her mom isn't any younger actually. She doesn't want to administer goodness.

So

Why does Ellen get to be all blonde and ditzy?
I was nice.

I Love the Mountains

Ellen, you're not the only friend in the world.

I demand you..

..to stop thinking you're Floridian.

Well

We are all free to love the beach, Ellen..

Oh My

Ellen doesn't like me being from Southeastern Florida by the beach.

Forget It

I'm going up north this month.

So..

..Where'd you go?  Want some attention?  Didn't I already know that?

O Just Shut Up You Nigger

I don't *beep* you collective people from "up north.."

Threats

Ellen DeGeneres is a bully, but I'll show her I'm cooler than that.

I keep getting these afterthoughts, but like I said it might not be her..  Like, she has to always be right but isn't and needs other people to do the simple work for her.  Like, she's never sure nor really in firm control, doesn't "take" things.  I find her soft and babyish.  She is overly nice and needs help in other ways.  I mean, she probably doesn't like doing that all the time.  My wish was that I could post along with others online and that she'd like me, but it's like there's no one else in the world but her Mamma and Portia.

Can you stop?

What, now I need a new computer mouse?

Let me make my bet.

I'd wanna do this concert with Sarah Brightman but w|o Jackie Evancho.

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Jackie @jackieevancho

You should have done a whole concert with her.

Time to Say Goodbye
Pie Jesu
There's a Place for Us
The Flower Duet
When|If Mamma Gets Married (Gypsy, by teenagers)
Let Me Entertain You (Gypsy, but by youngsters..)
Dream a Dream (Charlotte Church, others do it)

I thought there were 10.

Can You Feel the Love Tonight? (gay?)
Panis Angelicus

I'm missing 2.

Memory
Macavity (Cats!)
Mungojerrie + Rumpleteazer

Edit: The Prayer

Problem

So, are these suggestive messages from partly Ellen DeGeneres, like annoying things happening or is it really that person??  Who cares?  They think they have something, and I'm not sure..

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Do you still get nervous after you sing for something important?  =]

Schedule

I think I will watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," want to twice, but also to catch Bethenny and Jimmy Fallon and someday onto Colbert?  I saw some of Jay Leno today and David Letterman was on.

WAH!

Ellen I miss 2004.

I miss being with my roommate and having her count the chocolate chips she eats whilst I while away the day in music and contributing to good health-

Monday, October 14, 2013

For, now, I find..

These adults never wanted to do anything with their fans.  Why should they be all allowed to retire?  I didn't want Johnny Depp to.  It's been a rather unfair life.

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youtu .be/haVC2NC-608 Vid Re. Wow, you are a really good singer. I live in Orlando, too, and sometimes go to Rollins. A goal of mine would be to major in singing there, but I was class of 2008. You seem like you can really sing. Most people seem either anxious or proud of starting @ 15. I thought I was horrible, actually. I'm having problems with my voice cracking but still. I wish I could sing with you. I'm going on vacation so. Nice singing! :} Keep going!..

What's Funny

I didn't sing as a toddler but talked a lot, Ellen.

I wanted to sing and at 5 told my family.. tried to sing that song @ school to them.

At 6, I was in on music a lot, Michael Jackson and Free Willy.  Children's folk songs from my aunt, songs @ church I liked - Ah Lay Looo Ya..

At 7, I know I tried to memorize church songs.  I was allowed to sing in choir for Christmas.  At 8, they let 7-year-olds in.  In music, they taught the notes, so hard....

At 9, I was in such a good choir for vocal influence and strictness @ the oldest Catholic parish in the U.S.  This was until 6th grade, 11|12.

I moved and for 2 years, since there was no choir and I was scared of the voice piano teacher, I was able to expand alone at home on things like Celine Dion, Shania Twain too, Laura Branigan, eventually Bonnie Tyler and Sarah Brightman, Cats and Les Miserables and stuff, .. I got in high school and was into the idea of musical theater and participated and would wear even in junior high tights and turtlenecks "like Cats" and I'd run around hoarsely and sing "The Phantom of the Opera" on a karaoke machine .. please forgive me for losing my voice! and never recording!  I need to get back to that, maybe the clothes and colored lights would bring back those kinds of memories.  I was so physically fit!  105 pounds.

Oh, and Sarah, I made this post for you.. I guess I couldn't get myself to not copy Jackie..  It was so exciting when she was coming out, the CDs.  What, though.  I decided I had to be able to sing like Charlotte Church but am off.  I haven't been able to go in my old way but think as the same person I should.  I tried to talk in a low, tacky voice, like people in families with people born in 1953.  Since then, now I can't keep my voice from cracking.  My voice teacher was more a theater person, but she didn't teach me lots of plain acting..  I am gonna actually do voice over where she taught til now and I got kicked out.  She was being mean to me and so was the class and she didn't care.  ':{  I don't know how well-liked she is actually..  I like her, she's on my list of people with Johnny Depp.. she would find it suggestive, though.  ^99^  She seemed to like spreksteem (German sp?)  You know, I can't sing because my voice cracks.  That was before I took the private lessons.  We didn't seem to learn much at all in her classes.  What can I say?  She wasn't into the romance but more acting like she expected us to work more on our own while she pledged about the local box office..

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Why

does she think that fate doesn't determine what happens to you as a physical repercussion and thinks a person could have chosen to change that for you?  Huh????

Why does she keep popping up?

I know I bought something to sew and didn't, and I think Ellen DeGeneres found out.  Now, my dad plopped a 2nd computer in my room for some unknown purpose but some reason..  Now, my mouse is being stupid like hers.  How is that cute?  I went on to wonder @ her threatening my kids and being plain old defensive about if she had some..  I just thought, something modern she knows not of I guess, "I hope you don't have kids, then."  It means it in a certain way, but she'll probably make a face @ it on her show, sadly.  All she does is argue.  It also bothered me~~~my dad turned up the volume when I was wondering @ stuff, like if anyone read my blog.  It seems people just..  Ellen has no reason to argue.  She just wants to hurt people because she is Jewish..

Should I top this 1 off, then?  I mean, some things she just wants to "take the wrong way?"  Heard of that phrase????  Well, go ahead and learn these things.

"Disturbing"

It is suggestive to think you're punishing them by hurting or disturbing them.

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There was a lady named Sarah, a lady named Kristen, a type of smart toddler Chloe, a lady-in-waiting age 13 named Christina.., a girl named Peyton who was @ 6, and a final girl age 4 named Ellen.

There were lots of men out either working physically on the farm, the hard stuff, ladies-in-waiting picking berries who were @ 17 but a bit early to be charging tasks such as that at such a time..  The sisters had started going to a school the last 2 months..  Christina would carry them home and finish her homework, as she had a lot and had never read..

"Mommy!" Chloe said, when can I go see Jackie?  "In a minute, love.."  Christina would take her over and work on her needlework, which was quite a task.  She could sense in the future she would not be able to complete such tasks.  Her mind would boggle from being the oldest.  She only homed Mammy could keep care of her children..

There were witches and warlocks @, good warlocks and fairies!  Only Chloe and Christina could see them.  Christina was in Chloe's nursery 1 day, and Chloe looked around as though looking for something magical.  She owned a small, elegant cat no one could hardly see.

There was a party, some over and eventually to the Hallowed hall.  It was a Masquerade.  Christina went in purple and yellow, and she took Chloe in green and yellow with a purple necklace.

1 day at home, they found there would be a caravan to a mighty festival.

Ellen sat on the lap of Mlle. S.  Christina had a hard time keeping the girls to what she thought was good and grew confused, not much to her these days.

Finally, they arrived, and Chloe was wide awake.  They settled in and went for the opening night.  There was a tunnel of love, once again.  There were witches and kiddies all over..

Most of the time, Chloe was scared, like in the great big, lengthy tunnel of love and cried to others.  Ellen loved the tunnel of love.

Christina went around with some other girls her age she found there.

They sat around eating lunch, and 1 of the older girls asked, "Have you seen my sister, yet??  Sorta in a creepy way.  The ferris sweel was most creepy..  She looked to her left, "No."

Time to go back, things weren't quite so normal.  Christina had to go with the family to take care of the 2 little 1s, while Peyton was going on to be a swimmer and lifeguarding.

There was so much technology around, and Mommy is actually a witch here..  The mom would go away for awhile and the kids would be hard to look over, always so nervous in their pulled up dresses.  The mother's job was to obviously try to resolve the existence of crime.  There was talk of a murderer around, so they locked the doors and half got ready to leave but with nowhere to go.  "Sarah.." said Christina.. "I will take you to a better country, a better LAnd."  "Oh.." said Mlle.  Well, .. she went to take care of her business quickly and had no choice but to leave.  They followed Christina's guide and found a stable place to stay, found a vacancy at an inn and settled down. 

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I was a piano major in college for 1 year with organ as my 2ndary instrument along with voice for Music Education.  I also did violin and bells.  I had been takaing piano lessons and accompanying but nothing very hard nor serious..  I hope to do some major singing someday, am set to be a performer.  Otherwise, I know I would end my life in Music Education, if the world didn't need|want me.
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Please, Sarah Brightman, if you are so positive, then that means you will save my life - cannot press 1 button until all the kids with older moms, obviously my mom is like a sister and people of that age like a mom...., until they all believe they are the same as those with kids with moms @ 25 or 26..  Even Helena Bonham Carter, 20, like a mom!  She doesn't know and doesn't car!  ':|

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Sunday, October 13, 2013

Weight

minus @ 4 - am 160.8!!!8!!!8!!!

Wale! (Well)

Ellen DeGeneres is too embarrassed to ever let it out (joking @.)  I posted my dad and am worried he might get h****.  You know, people post things all the time without little made up rules, but I guesssome people like differentt hings.

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