Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Nite

Sleeping soon I think.  I do need it.  BTW I took down my old YouTubes on this channel.
I feel others have a good relationship to Dad but are jealous of mine so get mad but think I think I am better than I actually am.

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I feel I am being told what I do when I don't.

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I guess

Ellen also goes into you alone to harrass, or discipline, something for you.

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Unfortunately

I think Ellen suffers superstition that farmers are not good ancestors. She is just hard on me, sometimes, but she thinks there are no "exceptions."

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Wow

So, k*** me.  I'm just thinking of how comfortable I seem.  I have nothing good to say.

Question

Why does Ellen think I did something wrong?  I coulda made it big.  You know, I didn't really do anything.

No Excuse?

Well, I didn't try cleaning it.  When I was older, I did.

Question

Why is my room alweyz (always) crap?  You wanna blame aunts and uncles?  I didn't even have all I wanted, just crap..

Reaction

Uncontrolled Response

So, she's not gonna get it?

All the people who knew me who dropped me for someone .. else.

Help!

I need my dad to do something to his computer before I rearrange my room.

I might get upset.  Why do people think I'm so bad?  Better nip it in the bud, I did, for I fear and want to cut off something of mine.

So

Why do only the shit get Ellen? She was mean to me, eventhough she thinks she is indirectly.

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Tweet

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Well, Facebook is nasty.

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I have to clean my room a 4th time in the past day for the fish. I wanna watch TV. I also am going to Disney whenever I want..

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Findingmeaning in opera takes stepping stones.

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Why do kids today ff thru life so much?

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I just took job placement tests. I got all high scores, and on math with a calculator, my score was past high school. 1 test I got personal and clerical from a long list. The other education and government-ish. I only picked dance for the arts and communications section.

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I take it back..

Sorry @ the comment I wrote out on Twitter.

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Did you want me to say something @ someone else?

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Unpopular

People point fingers at me.

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Wow

Old Post

Sarah Brightman is doing such neato concerts..  I wish there was a tour where kids could go every night and watch the concert from the back with pizza..

Monday, October 28, 2013

Nitey

Soon

New Video

New Video of Me Singing

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Oh no!

Sorry I was upset @ that girl, not really, though.

So

Even @ the climax

I'll give .. my dad ..

.. a bell !

Well..

You know, with the style I'm going by and all, creating my style.

So

I am listening to a lot of singers, and I still sound better.

Sheet Music

I am gonna buy this, asking my dad @ copyright.

http://www.sheetmusicplus.com/title/flower-duet-digital-sheet-music/19402107?ac=1

Prestige

I don't think Sarah Brightman is so great she can't read my blog.. I don't think my friends are so smart they don't need to read it every day!  I really don't want to comment.

Problem

Why do you think you can improve me and make me any happier?

What?

You still tailing me like I did something wrong?

Wow

You care so much @ that Tween on Twitter.  *BEEP*

Problem

They're bothering me again.  "Ellen" is just taking advantage of the N word thing I said.

Problem

They did something else to me, and I wasn't comfortable and then they m.. me.

Wait

Maybe, you can sing like different people.  I am sorry @ black people who sound bland, I'm sure they all don't.

Problem

Why does Ellen think errors in my singing means I'm black?  Just to save her ass?  Oops, why does she send that message so rudely?  Oh, ahss, everyone says that in Europe or England.  That's what it is anyway.. forgot that might mean the real Ellen..

Facebook

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Update

I added recommendations to my website.  It's the same as before.

1

I guess I will just do the Flower Duet and play it on piano with the other part on piano.  I have to write it myself.

Why do

Adults slice into the dirt and look like they did something they didn't?  I already did the right thing!

Why do..

..people who grow up in Southeastern Florida get stimulated by dirty things??  (Sorry.. I'm tired.. have to clean my room a 3rd time today for the fish.)

Facebook

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Why are kids stimulated?

Racial Discrimination and Jealousy

I know people discourage the development of European traits in the Chinese and other Asians and blacks.

Important Post

People in different areas evolved in different biological ways that make certain things in their offspring and grandchildren "natural."  It is not good and evil and can be replicated in other genomes.. or whatever

Story

This may reach, but a relative openly displayed that she likes people from Florida originally as native ancestry but not when I spoke of them.

I got an idea.

The girl from New Orleans walking showing her back .. she has sequins and a funkitated dress like party time.  She thinks she is some thing from Heaven blessed by the shit her ancestors did.  Okay?  What else is there to say to know what I mean?  It looks like something good that others like me would spot out and like.

2

That's 2 things.. I bet they are just making fun of me now saying "2."  Too bad you do it in French.

So, Ellen is mad @ the Late Boom thing not being the only cool people and .. someting else

Wow

Ellen is using the N word thing as an excuse to hurt me.  I don't mean to make her look bad nor insult her.  I'm just guessing since I think she's really mad that I said I can't approve of Late Boomers as designated from Heaven to be the only comfortable, good-looking, ***y creature.

Also

What's with the stupid impersonation caricatures with changes of Ellen?  You're getting her in trouble somehow..  Like, I don't wanna just write everything, but is she dumping me?  It's because someone's not good enough if they do that to me like say I liked them more than most people.  Anyway, dumping me, that's an odd thing to talk @.. What?  That was an insult!  What don't you get!!  Who cares @ the N word thing?  What's with all the messages?

So

You just wanna kid around?  Why do you think my mom shouldn't have a kid?  Then, that means other people shouldn't.  So, what?  You can see her whenever you want.  I do see her now.

Also, it's suggestive seeing you are all all so mean to me all the time sometimes.

Weirdo

I want an aura of maturity surrounding me like it was.

NO I AM NOT TALKING TO ANYONE I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU NOR ANYONE

So

My mom thinks Ellen approves of my mom with a toothy grin just because she's older?  Really?  Stop joking that I shouldn't exist..  Don't you have a lot going for you??

O K

Did my dad just call me Mongoloid, like on my website, so conveniently, which I need to update?

Making Music Melodious

Making Music Melodic

They did that after all the cringy music of like 1995 and 1996.

Making Music Melodious

Making Music Melodic

They did that after all the cringy music of like 1995 and 1996.

Plans

I will make an old fashioned dress with a bodice or whatever, a lace in front, have made this before .. red and white somehow.

I am writing out the lyrics and saying what the music will say.  I have 10 folk songs + others.. like the Flower Duet.  Want to find a French singer..  Then, I need music paper to write on.  I think I will need to find out how to get it all played..  Don't mind doing it as a MIDI, and I can affect changes in specificer things.

My blog alone has over a thousand views and I have thousands of views on YouTube.  I can count like that.

If you

treated me like a younger "kid" I'd not be prepared, like a teen today..  It must be everything to a selfish brat who's a Late Boomer.

Seee

It's fun to have an attitude with older bad guys- and then that's NOT younger.  It all works out smoothly.  1 thing would have to go tick-

Why can I

have an attitude with someone who's -younger-?  It doesn't look like it!  I don't even have 1.  :|

So..

make sure your winnings are your last resort.

Do you wanna..

k*** me for doing something you got in trouble for that you nagged with??  Weird.

Edit

I reordered my websites on the side of this blog.

Edit

I have a new website.

Singing Tips

Guess you have to be able to sing a lot well at once, for a long time.

Also, there are other singers other than Sarah Brightman and all think they're better and you're a worse person.  I don't mean anything against anyone in particular..

So

I had to move 2 computers.  This table seems to wiggle..  My mcahine part I put on the floor.

School

I'm gonna stay home and watch TV shows for awhile and use my yearly Disney pass!  It blots out holidays and summer.

Well

I wanna clean my room before my dad gets home.  If not, then tomorrow.  I may go to bed at a good time tonight.

So

This "new" Ellen is for other people!  AH!  WHAT ABOUT ME?!

Sick?

Who do they wanna talk to?  Did they talk to them, yet?  Who will talk to me?

Well

Ellen, if that friend said goodbye-

I still wanna watch the show to be in on it.

Question

How can it be inappropriate for someone to suggest an Asian to someone but not others?  I mean, like 1st it's just a social issue and then it's that it's because they are more European when other people are.  So, I'm speaking of people in general, not those particular folks.

It's been proven.

A 1/2 Chinese-Vietnamese had a nose just like Ellen but longer, very tan skin, unsure of why.  Guess there are more ways to be like Ellen.  I dunno, if she's like me.

Edit

I took out the Twitter lists from the side.

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Wo There

Online Personas

Since I Gotta Set Things Straight

I talked a lot @ Sarah Brightman since I liked her so much.  I was saying, naturally, she will have to steer away from stressing over millions and billions of talented child followers who may or may not make it on something like Jackie Evancho.  She can set the bar by singing with me or someone else talented enough.  I hope she finds some preprofessional and I find some professional to do the duet parts of my planned CD.

Back Online

I've been rearranging my room, picking up everything 1 by 1.

iTune

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/where-have-all-flowers-gone/id389077405?i=389077415

1997, only Jan 1st..
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Statistics
Gender: Female
Age: 27½
Location: Central Florida (Disney)
Height: 5'-5'5"
Weight: 160 pounds

Blood
Race: White|Asian|Pacific Islander
Ethnicities: Anglo, French, Dutch, German
Heritage: Ancient Swiss Blood
U.S. Heritage: Amish

Lifestyle
Occupation: Student|Future Performer + Teacher + Hostess
Possible College Majors|Minors: Singing Major, Communications + Film Minor
Skills: Classical Singing

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Statistics
Gender: Female
Age: 27½
Location: Central Florida (Disney)
Height: 5'-5'5"
Weight: 160 pounds

Blood
Race: White|Asian|Pacific Islander
Ethnicities: Anglo, French, Dutch, German
Heritage: Ancient Swiss Blood
U.S. Heritage: Amish

Lifestyle
Occupation: Student|Future Performer + Teacher + Hostess
Possible College Majors|Minors: Singing Major, Communications + Film Minor
Skills: Classical Singing
leggo my Eggo 8I

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Twitter

I edited my Twitter profile.

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Worried

So, my Gramma seemed to be worked up over me.

What if I said..

What if I said no Ellen DeGeneres is not insensitive?

Apology

I am sorry I had to get upset asking my Gramma and Dad why they bothered me with noises @ the table.  Sorry for any other wayward thoughts, but I didn't think them on purpose but didn't feel like I'd feel good.

I won't h*** anyone.

Extra sorry for startling 1 of the young girl 2nd cousin kids I have.

Also, sorry if I've been upset @ Ellen DeGeneres because people act like she said something to me.

Update

I listed possible majors and minors on the side.

New Photos

New Photos of Me

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New Flickr

Saturday, October 19, 2013

We need to start stopping.

The age old question.  Of if I grew up in a white culture.

Singing

I'll ask for 1 that lets me sing loudly.

So, I applied for colleges..

and I put Pacific Islander.  Hope there is still.
I learned most of my music on my ass.

So What

if I was a late bloomer other than in height.

Loser

You want a fully developed st**-**ll

Ole so (also)

I was like my mom.

My Thing

I mean, if I had a pointy nose and chubby cheeks, I'd want to be "together."

Ya'll need to stop

asaying I looked like a noodle or a needle as a tot.  I wasn't fat and had tan skin sometimes.  I just posted those pix to show my eye and hair color.  When I had white skin, I wasn't as see-through-ish..  I don't think I'm different now.  I just have lighter skin, a pointier nose..  I would have rather not looked like a noodle or a needle, but I am more of a ham.

WTF

is wrong wit' my family

So

What if I'm quicker to give you a rub?

Hmph

My brother messed up my life.

No, but I've always been set my eye on it.

How I'm like..

Taylor Swift - I lived in the New Orleans area like she lived in Pennsylvania.

BUT

I have that sWEet voice.

Wow

Hayley isn't wild at all, I mean she is but not in the tone of the actual conversation..

Well, maybe..

Hayley is like Sarah's daughter I thought because she's like a sweet little puppy from NZ..

Ha Ha

And I thought I was the classical 1 but I am lOOUUUD

Why does.. . .

Hayley Westenra sound like Charlotte Church not discluding Jackie Evancho?

HA HA

My voice is louder than Sarah Brightmans.  I do not use a mic.

Insulted

What is wrong with my singing?  Nothing.  I am taking private singing again next semester..

English Early Boomers

I find them dirty and dumb.

Time

People will get to you, you just are pushy for the attention.

Take Ellen DeGeneres for instance, I never knew her as a kid.  If I did, I'd say that she was not a normal human, she was a special kind like the rest of her classmates.

It is incredibly rude to push me off cuz you think you won't get attention from someone like Julie Andrews and not sure who else now.  That's not a good way to act.  I didn't say that Ellen did it because I really don't know.  Sad that I thought of her when I thought of this..

What's Different

No one thinks I'm a pushy, retarded show-off.  Ha ha.  Tell me how to say retarded..  The news is and it's good!  There's room and time for all, please step up!  Pirelli's Miracle Elixir!

Hm Hm

If it weren't for Tim Burton, I would not experience any crappy setback.

Irish Singers, HMM

They don't really seem to open up..

Irish Singers, HMM

They don't really seem to open up..

Open and Wild at Home

No one wants to talk to me.  They are like putting some girl in my face over me, too, not sure how else to say that now.

Quick

I simply am an adult.

I've Decided

I'm not putting up with this, I'm not waiting.

British Airways

I was gonna go to bed but was disturbed.

Why do people complain @ who I am, take advantage of me, that I am insincere.  I don't like act like I'm not an okay person just to make someone feel they are better than me..  That's just weird..

Hm..  It's too bad I'm in this experiment thing.  Too bad anyone ever took advantage just of me.

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So

If you followed me, you got endlessly bigger.  Now, it's time to work on yourself as a person.  Try to stretch, but you'll bounce right back.  5'5" seems to be a happy height.

Edit

I changed it again.

Update

I edited my text box info.

Also

I am bigger set for some reason but don't wanna be bigger set @ 160 pounds.  So..

:|  Is that why you love me?  No?  Guess I can go..

You know, to be honest, I was tall in 4th-6th grade, not gigantically inclined, luckily somehow, had good short friends?  I had problems with adults being @ my height, but I wanted to grow tall, not sure what age, maybe when I'm an adult.  My body has elasticity.  I can find myself @ 5'5, just like I found my eyes all bright yellow when we moved to Orlando from another place in the area, before living in the New Orleans area.  You know, I was hoping kids would be tall.. I wonder I'm actually trying to get larger cuz I'm rather short.  Maybe, .. I dunno, I just know I wouldn't be happy an adult..  I'm not sure what'll happen to me, now.  Anyway, wanted to slide up the chart.  I dunno what I was thinking @ someone's height.  I think I got confused.  I didn't say anything, maybe did, but you could tell.  So, I'm not sure what happened.  I finally made the decision.  My belief is if you have enough control and priority for things @ life that pretty much that's what happens, like boys you can grow in your 20s and even 30s like me.

What's your belief in really tall young people?

I've seen shorter 1s.

Problem

I don't wanna have to do anything, I'm playing the ignoring game.  Why does my dad do things to punish me?  I didn't do anything, leave me alone!!  Like, I don't leave him a note for a weird reason and he does something for later, but it's tomorrow.

You know, I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and like Tim Burton and don't wanna be close to my dad all of a sudden who's been sour and who I avoided by staying in my room.

Facebook

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Blessings

So, you don't know how both incredibly blessed yet how incredibly hard my life is.  I don't think everyone is destined to be born to the 1950 generation like slaves and then all @ Late Boom families slide into the world, people say yes it's okay it's @ you and they fit in.  I don't like the meanness they experienced getting, though.  Like, they are the ideal.  I don't even have a generation that has a mother supposedly.  I know from my dad's side I don't faint but I'm like out.

I'm listening to the karaoke for Sweeney Todd from Dec 2007.  Nell Burton was born December 15th 2007.  I remember posting online, and no I don't feel welcome.  I feel I was too late.  So, this is something they'd listen to and not know what they're hearing but leave feeling pleasured.  I am glad for them, but what about people not from families of that generation?

All I can say is they don't like most moms born far enough after 1960 and 1961.  It is indeed funny the baby of the family in "The Brady Bunch" was born then.  It might work out for me, know people wanna fight me.  I still though feel I'm crap from my dad's side, listening to this.. like really..  I can't tell my mom's age, but you saw me as a baby and know she's Chinese-Indonesian.  Well, guys usually like dating Chinese women probably 15 years younger but dunno.  They could be like a teenager.

I wonder what the Alice in Wonderland soundrack is.  Is it for Nell??

Still, you have to be born 1992 or 1997|8.  People born 1991 were considered really **** and 1990 very intelligent.  1989 is "still the 1980s" I guess.  I wish I had a kid who was 6 now.  They sure are cute.  However, I wanted a boy and a girl a year apart.  Kids born in 1992 are special and into Tim Burton and like the musical.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Sigh

I dunno, I just have to put up with it.  Why am I in a bad mood?

Facebook

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Hm..

I guess I should remember it's not any 1 person's fault and I won't think nasty thoughts.

Problem

Then my post didn't post.

Stop acting like you're m.. me, like all fascinated.

Problem

What are you doing?  Why did the # say 86?  I don't wanna play shit.

So

Are you all inviting me out and coming in?

I know

Ellen is being mean to me.  Right, that's what you said.

Problem

Who just pressed a button?

Problem

Stop punishing me!  I can think whatever I want.  My mom comes in and annoys me and tries to **** me.  I can think whatever I want.

Yes

I think I am the 1 who is like Hayley, not her like me.

Biggest Fan

How many big fans does Sarah Brightman have??  I think she has Hayley Westenra.  They sing similarly.  I know it.  It is so similar.  I don't know how much *** she has had.

But it's like oh wow.  I thought of it maybe, but I mean so cool!  She is so much like her or wants to be.  They have the same personality.  I wonder if they will just be busy soulmates.  They are similar.  I think they are the same height but am not sure.  Hayley looks tiny.  Jackie Evancho said she was a big fan at such a young age.  I heard of her when I was a developed teenager, like by 15.  I am the age of Charlotte Church.  I forgot @ her.  She looks a lot like her when they have bangs.  I'm sure it's the same thing for her.  I found I had that English toothy look.

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

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Holy Moly Osh Kosh Bagosh

The South is ***y and has class.  It is not Me he ko (Mexico.)

HA

I may as well ***.  That's what Ginny did..  Look out!  I don't feel unaccepted, but I'm not doing shit, neither!  I guess I have to wait until a long time to start school.  I will be doing voice over classes, which are related in some way in order to get a different experience.  I am more set on college than the Disney parade.  It would be fun to do dance as a major, but I mean singing is fun.

Well

I was never so insulted.  Why would you tell someone they're not as good as someone else, just in general, like take down their badge?  You're there to pop the question.

Um..

..So, is the new hero Hayley Westenra?  I just wanted to know why not accept other people who sing?  How did you find out about anyone at all because I noticed you just know Jackie Evancho and only people in the loop know Hayley Westenra.  Charlotte Church and some other little boy.  So, she's the only 1?  I don't agree with that.  I was open to different things.  If I had to pick 1 person, it would be Ellen.  I guess I'll be with other people, though, like non-accomplices..

Girl Fun

More than anything I just wanna be a blogger, a girl who has fun at her computer.

For fun, I will tell you of my busy schedule..

I did gymnastics + baton each twice a week by the time I was 7.

I started gymnastics and didn't quit until 1 time we moved so I could hopefully ooze into ballet.  I started at 1 3/4 and didn't wanna quit and said no to ballet.

When I was 19 for 1 semester, I did 2 technically professional or normal ballet programs of the highest level.  I went to 2 or 3 ballet schools for a year when I was 20.

When I was in the nation's oldest continuing city, I took time to walk around a lot and there was no ballet.  I actually went to a special school for visual art, which is an appealing thing..  Then, Iswitched to piano, I was 9 1/2.  I had been playing by ear.  I wanted to be a singer I said since a career project in 2nd grade, age 7, when I was a kid..  Anyway, I got the highest grades all through grade school.  I was in choir and piano and was a prodigy and played in church and now everyone is addicted to my music and visual art.  They find me an elegant performer..

I moved to the New Orleans area, and I was the Queen of Clubs for both in school and out of school activities combined.  It's hard to remember, but there are like 20 things, where I was what I was, a social person who people wanted to hear from @ something I guess..  So, what's interesting is I did Talented Music and art.  I told you @ my schedule when I was a senior in high school.  I guess what I didn't remind you of was 2 things:
(1) college - piano, organ, voice, class violon, and 1 semester of bells in the band too - 5 + ballet though I wasn't allowed in the class that includes performance.. and when I was I danced with the pedagogy class.
(2) I ended up coming home and have been intent and focused on how to be modern-cool-popular by posting online and taking pictures wanting to be like Johnny Depp, who didn't dance but sang!

Did you not notice the hail after the storm?  I would go out and always be in so much pain and locked myself in my room when we moved during the hurricane.  I've been locked up, per se, for 8 years.  When the N word event occurred I started to sing online.  I wanted to wait and do opera.  I was trying to get healthy and tall, but it was so hard, didn't want to see anyone.  So, I'd been upholding the belief in the Hollywood lifestyle - anyone can try to be good enough to model and act, even if you aren't 15 then.

A HA

I should sing with Johnny Depp.

Plan

Spring 2014 - age 27-8
Singing
Choir
English II
Math

Summer 2014 - age 28
Math
2 Science
Social Science

Fall 2014 - age 28 - 28 1/2
Social Science
Singing
Choir
Theory III
Class Piano III?

Spring 2015 - age 28-9
2 Humanities
Theory IV
Class Piano IV?

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= Graduated with AA degree when I turn 29
= Applied to Rollins + UCF for Singing BM|BA

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A Cute Girl

I would say Hayley Westenra is a sweet girl who deserves a lot.

The only think I'm saying is, not talking -to- her, is that I actually have sung a lot in between homework, done more music than most anyone in school at least.  This is theoretical.  I wasn't a star in band, too busy.  I was in 3 choirs, ballet once a week at 1 time..  Band.  Music school on Saturdays.  I drove myself.  That was 1 year..  Before, I mean I was artistically inclined.  I sang by myself.  I had to pay for ballet.  I know I can do music.  My therapist just told me @ that and wondered @ my singing with the schizophrenia, though.  She doesn't really talk right at me on it, though, just eludes to it.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Wouldn't I be funnier

to sing "Somewhere" with Sarah Brightman than Jackie Evancho?

Nap

Soon

Edit

I am alternating the song on my blog.

Time to..

Iron and listen to music.

New Video

New Video of Me Talking

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College Degree

I need 9 more general studies courses:

English II
2 Humanities
2 Social Science
2 Science
2 Math

Maybe, I can take:
Singing
Choir
English II
Math

Update

I've edited the pictures of me that are available.  Not much.

Something More Exciting to Look Forward To

So, is Orla Fallon gonna ever sing again like with Lisa and Hayley from Celtic Woman??  I saw Sarah Brightman, and she sings Scarborough Fair just like them.  I wonder if Lisa is Irish.  I mean, yea, they should do that.  I wonder what it is @ me that people like Ginny suddenly because of Burton have pushed me aside.. that is so rude, not to hone in on Ginny..  !  Well, anyway, I mean Sarah Brightman seems like she's still promising.  As for Orla Fallon, I know she went to Holland twice.  I don't know what ethnicity Orla's mom is, though.  I know her dad has French.  I don't know if Orla Fallon is very active now..  Sarah Brightman is but going to space.  I didn't meet her personally.  Orla Fallon was actually pretty friendly before she had a baby and now is rather sweet.  So..  I guess I need to find a better singing sample to put on my blog.  I finally put up some pictures, though, and infor. @ me.  I am all over insulted, a guarantee I did more music than you all.  Is Hayley Westenra the new Nell Burton?  Well, if you think @ it, I don't wanna be her.  I think Hayley wants to be like me, but I don't wanna be like me.  I just mean "when" I meet someone, why is it always no.. which it isn't actually..  I have to turn over my life to get singing training @ a college.  I might go for the degree..  Later, I can do another major.  Performance will be 1st.  I guess I should wait and do Theory 3 later since I already did 2, 3 not available.  Also, I think I have to wait for Class Piano.  What else?  That's all.  Private Lessons and Choir.  guess I'll add a General Studies course or 2.  Maybe 1 to get an A?  I don't have a homework desk, yet, and wanna give away my Betta.  I have 2 computers.  I'm supposed to just have 1 computer in the end.  Sad to say, my dad's old 1 doesn't work as well and shuts off from the internet.  I should ask him to move it.  I just use it sometimes.  I don't know where to put it, though.  Part of the table is for art.  I mean, I could not have a singing space cleared, as well.  The TV shows, now.  Wow this is a lot to think @.

I dunno what tone you think I talked @ Hayley in, but I will say I trust I am not as accepted.  Maybe I need to be presentable online, can't seem to get a new Flickr.. nor YouTube.  What to do??  I will try.

Comment

http://feministing.com/2013/09/27/do-you-know-your-ix-do-you-fancy-a-little-activism-this-weekend/

Wow, that's neat, the color of the article background is bright like "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  You know, I cannot forgive Tim, why do people like people like her and Chloe Grace Moretz but not new people like me?  I had accumulated a plethora of talent.

Well, no hard feelings to Tim.  I just got upset @ how he changed the world with Johnny Depp.

Comment

http://amillionparachutes.tumblr.com/post/64271916648/xxxnchocolate-lets-have-a-gina-torres-moment

I have to tell you, honestly, being part Mongoloid and not Middle Eastern I do not feel black from my European side and do not feel black people are worse than us.

Problem

You have no right to annoy me alone in my room by how you make things load and stuff.

I have a feeling that the spacing is being affected as I type now.

In fact, you're headed for embarrassment.  You'll find it's not okay, just like having someone in your room annoying you in some way and you can't get them out.

Best not to say oh I can take this, too, never relaxing @ anyone.

Comments

http://holymoleyeducation.com/2013/10/15/choosing-private-schools/

I wish I went to a public school cuz my main problem was no good education + not enough sleep.  If I wasn't given busywork, just memorizing, I would get enough sleep and pick up on more for test scores.  I am so unhappy that happy adventure has ended.

http://holymoleyeducation.com/2013/10/16/bullying-a-parents-role/

Well, if it's dangerous is if you take away the computer, like if your kid .. I dunno .. they should have access to their own online journal so you can see what's going on rather than e-mail.  If someone is mean, they should not be mean back but seems should be okay to talk @ the problem with others online.  Just don't be nasty or you will be disliked.  I've had that problem, and it seems to relate to family, like me not establishing a personality it seems, so I can accept setback and not starting to use curse words, like OMG or worse 1s.  I go and take it back.  If I think something bad, my day is off, too.  I try to prepare myself for my day.  This can be done by eating cleansing food and getting proper rest.  Exercising, you have to change your clothes, but when you feel less curled up like in a shell you can go on to exercise, I guess.  Even chores give you a good workout.  Definitely picking up the things in your room and separating them out to storage help.  Things from stores can pile up, bags of necessities, like cleaning spray, bathroom supplies, etc., can pile up.  It's just a matter of creating for yourself a holistic environment.  Feng shui (sp?) used to be really popular.  They sold little books @ the bookstore, maybe BN.  Just make sure you get your rest and relaxation and eat holistic things for like breakfast or a snack, like a fruit bowl.  You may not always be up for a salad, but that's like a salad, a fruit bowl..  Baths also put you in a good mood, just do just enough and save the work for if you feel good or maybe say you have the bath in your room away from the family.  Before you go out, which you will have to, make sure you are relaxed, well rested and on a holistic meal like a fruit bowl.  If you need to keep food in your room is okay, but grab a fruit bowl!  If you eat other things, they may put you in a worse mood.  Eat things like sandwiches, I guess.  I dunno, then, when you have the opportunity or just need a break maybe go work out, too.

Comment

http://opovet.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-didnt-mean-to-leave-you-all-hanging.html

D;  It's true, it is contagious!  I was gonna use eye drops, have some in a drawer.

Okay, so..

http://zandiepants.blogspot.dk/2013/06/purple-lotus-mandala-bedroom-inspiration.html

Wow, this is nice.  I actually use my little sofa as a bed but wanted a futon so I could have my own talk show at home.

What Needs to Be Done

I wonder if I can spice up my life online.

I have laundry to go in and iron.  I can clean up more, washing some other things.

Problem

I don't believe you..

Problem

Why is the message different from that person on Yahoo!

I heard a click WHAT and felt different in the night.  WHAT WHY DID YOU SLIDE DOWN.  Why don't I feel thes ame

Well

I see I left up GTH, but that's none of your business, obviously.  Why did someone say hi to me on Y! and why did the main box go away as I tried to get my mouse to click it??  WHAT STOP.

New Video

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Too Bad

I was upset, I understand some people think they can tell just me not to use a curse word when it seems to even fit..

Twitter + Facebook

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Wow

I hope Sarah Brightman's concerts are going good.

On Ellen today I liked the 2 guys and the nice lady a lot.

What I've Said

I am upset because my mom made me upset for little reason.  Then, I thought of Ellen, as my mom flounced @.  I told her not to do that.  Now, we have bad posts concerning Ellen.  You goofball and meany, I still want to think @ her sometimes or in good ways.  I dunno if I really deliberately think of her often.

You see..

Ellen will say what she does that's bad is right cuz she's a shallow goof now because of the n word thing.  Why you afraid Ellen?

TV

Guess I'll go watch TV now.

Uncovered Something Else

Ellen is just barking @ her attractive parents, but she's not better herself.  She wasn't treated like me..  Don't lock me up with just my parents like that!..  Ellen is kinda mean, does things her parents don't, like be illogical like I said.  I don't give a fuck @ any of you and what you say @ my cursing on my online journal..blog..

Problem

Stop talking back to me.  If I say I need something to feel good you don't take it away when it's some thing like heaLth!

Can't Let Things Go

Ellen acted out @ me yesterday..  I mean, you gotta relax.  She doesn't even blog.

I dunno, but she was upset @ something going on, probably just that..

What's with the superstitions like you have to be mean to me and can't sort out your feelings like a mature person?  You take this seriously.  You think it means something @ me.  I mean, I felt a bit endangered by thinking of the word "shit" @ my mom.  I wasn't feeling well, just came out to say hi and good night..  Maybe, I ate too much fat??  Seems to be the thinking.  I had another dog and burger last night, but tonight I had fruit after my meal.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Problem

Ellen acts mean to be cute.  People are nicer to her for her race and being a southern blonde!  So what, I have more U.S. culture.  I'm no dodo.  I don't give a crap for NYC.

Problem

Ellen is no more Southern than me.  Talk @ it, don't bark.  The only reason would be bad..

Upset

I don't mean it against any certain people for some, but I'm getting pretty annoyed @ my mom.  My dad also causes a ruckus..  Well, my mom is nice in a way, keeps the house sane.  I just was being teased for no good reason, I think cuz I'll be visiting my gramma.

Problem

All you people in the world can go to Hell.  Stop picking on me for Nell Burton being called the n word.  Oh, now you're racist and nothing I say matters.

Problem

Those kids are treated like they have something open in their lives, the sky's the limit, wait no.

Problem

Those kids are treated like they have something open in their lives, the sky's the limit, wait no.

Old Text Box

Wannabe•Movie|Disney Actress
•Internet Show Host (w| Skits like SNL)
•Tinkerbell|Alice in WDW Main Street Electrical (Light) Parade
•in Finding Dory

About Me•½ Chinese Anglo-Irish German French Dutch
•5'3+
•Brunette
•Dark Brown Eyes w|Green
•White Skin

Favorite Places
•Miami Beach (never been)
•Key West
•Fort Lauderdale
•New Orleans
New Website

Young Singers

That's all very well, I had an interest in more than 1 thing but think music or singing were @ at the top of it.

Problems?

I dunno, people seem mad at me and are picking on me for who my dad is.. also I am a good singer, that Johnny Depp!  How the fuck much do you think I need to practice?  I might need this semester to rectify my voice, either get big bucks from Finding Dory after voice over this year or I'm in school next semester.  Then, I guess I stop and stay at home and sing and go to Disney.  I will take PE @ the school..  I will see @ mah singing.
Going to Bed Soon

What's a safe double major?

SCC doesn't have dance.  I can do that later.  I have to have something other than singing?  I was looking @ Music Education, no good Communications majors, just 1 course called Oral Communication though.  I see now there are not 1 but 3 courses in the Education system, which interests me greatly though I am onto other things.  I seriously would like to be a general music teacher but not within a school during working hours.  I wanna be famous as a singer and maybe sing with other people, like duets.

A Question~

I mean, you both are so famous.  Why not?  No relationship?  No annual event where you have to meet????

People With Kids

Jackie, Sarah Brightman should be like a mom to you, you.  I mean, it's a certain thing I grew up knowing.  It doesn't usually happen, but I know.  I mean, I'm not like pushing her.  Like, you should expect the ideal to happen in the public world.  You should have someone like a friend or a sister other than your own.

Friend to Friend Question

What do you think of the changes you see in Jackie Evancho?  She may not have thought some of what she did was a big deal nor was prepared for it but flustered.  I'm not really coming here to insult but to say that kids today don't think big things mean anything.  They do good things that might not make sense for them to do.  Like, do you just say oh well I'm white I don't care in the end?

Also

Why are Late Boomers acting like they're older?  They just don't wanna be nice to us kids.  Why do they get to be so stimulated?

Also

I mean she's not like more giving because she's older..

Rudeness

How do you feel about Ellen DeGeneres's rudeness @ how she looks just because she was born @ 1960?  I forget the other thing, but it's so rude to us.. and kids!  Ha ha I was speaking in a joking tone.

Also, yea, she's not better and more righteous, hasn't given up anything..

Also

What is with the way people want to punish me!!!!  I didn't do anything!   They find little things that weren't FAIR

Forum Post

Forum Post

My life was clouded with technology.

Imagine me being a nice, intellectual, friendly and though withheld still sociable.   When I was leaving high school and entering "the real world" people started to suggest things like oh Christina is growing up and wants to be somebody so I'm doing something else and not letting the world fit her so she can't do anything.

I mean things like Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and what happened because of it.   Johnny Depp is the poster image for this from Pirates of the Caribbean.

Upset

Re: How is she as a person?

Sarah is an angel!! I met her in September, 2000, after her absoulutely fabulous LA LUNA concert in Philadelphia. She was signing autographs and taking pix at the stage door -- I got 2 autographs and 3 pix with her and best of all got to hug and kiss her!!!!! How many celebrities today let you close enough to do that? She's kind and gentle and a gazillion percent genuine. With Sarah, what you see is what you get. I'll love her till time and the universe cease to exist!!!

"I'm not used to being happy. It's funny, it hurts." Janet Gaynor as Diane, 7th Heaven, 1927.
Well, good 2006 topic.  What made me mad is I know everyone is turning their back on me.  I read that for example not @ her so much but she still did autographs then but this time didn't..  Guess she is more of a legend.  I can see it, I mean think @ it, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and then you're not in it.. Everyone is taking over now that my generation is older, like I guess we can't make it big and have to remember to keep our feet on the ground.

I have the feeling people are just telling me I'm somethig I'm not.  I'm really mad @ what I found out today, but it's not @ Sarah Brightman.  It's them bringing up things like racism to say you can't be like someone else in life.  It's happening all over, and I may seem to be ruining my ego but am just talking and know it.

Just imagine me a normal, intellectual, polite, maybe withheld yet sociable person.  All of a sudden people are darting me everywhere in the world, like making fun of me.  Like, @ important things.  I never really fantasized that I'd know some famous person but knew I had to be in the good list.  If not, then I will be mad.

Tacky

So, what, do you feel tacky to get attention?

So, how will we take something like this?  This is not the level of JFK .. Julie Andrews.  Jim Carrey.

I mean, it's like she's like Ellen and wants to be weird, or she's a sweet English woman trying to be fun.

Really Excited

I mean, I wouldn't like point what I do to do something physical like go to outer space.  I mean it should be exciting, like the spirit of someone as happy as JFK (sorry if that creeps you out.)  I mean, I found it rather weird because you can't just put anyone up there.  Johnny Depp has his own island?  I must be old-fashioned.  I wanna learn to be ooold-FASHioned! (old fashioned)

Things We'll Never Do

Did you ever think like Ellen has Portia so we think we'd do that 1 day?  Is it a joke?

So, what other things do you think you'd do?

I wanted to work in a meat factory.

So..

Is everyone partly excited Sarah Brightman is going to outer space?  It sound wonderful.  I wonder what about the voyage attracts her.  I meanm, is she going to be able to float?  She added a lot @ how she wants to live forever and like asks don't you or something.  I wonder how good the equipment is.  I know I want to be in the military as 1 thing so I can go to the Middle East, which I wanted to be Muslim but went back to church again.  It wasn't really a pointed decision.  I honestly see no reason to be upset, I mean isn't she supposed to sing again up there?

Weird

Give everything you have to a teen, and then it works but they think there's not enough -aBOuT- them.

Ah! I'm so confused!

Why aren't there more videos from the concert, Sarah Brightman??
IMDb

Can you take a joke?

I'm Ellen DeGeneres's punching bag.

New Videos

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Experimental Music

Put Sarah Brightman in Sweeney Todd.
IMDb

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Thank You So Much!

Ellen inspired me to keep up my core workouts, and the muscle there is really building.

She inspired my Halloween costume, too!

Um, may I ask a question..

Have you ever been to Lion Country Safari?

However

I am the only 1 administering to .. likcing .. my wounds ....

Wow

Ellen is my best friend!

I feel like

I'm going to NOCCA in New Orleans.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

The Show

I hope Ellen has or is having or had a good show!  She has a cute boy on I see.

Why Pressure

I do want young dads to have a thing with their daughter..

Well

I've been active on my YouTube playlists.. shoulda said

link

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Sorry

Did I hurt your feelings?  I didn't technically go in and actually curse.  I was in a rage, yea, but what could I do?  Just wait for another time.  I was upset @ like what was happening, but I kinda like it, too, so, I dunno, I think it was something more specific..

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Problem

Why is the government shut down so tacky?  Ellen talks @ it jokingly.  I'm sure she will find trouble.  Her aunt just died, but she was almost 100.  I'm sorry @ it, still.  I was just pointing it out.  I don't know if she'll really find big trouble.  She finds trouble with me, though..  I mean, then ya'll just say I did something wrong when I express what happened.  I didn't even attack back..  I was upset, I wasn't cursing.  Well, a little, but as an aside.  Do you know what pops up in my head when I'm mad??  I just don't feel like stopping and thinking @ shit.

Problem

Why do you want me suddenly sorry?  I just say if someone is mean to me!!  That's why I curse but not badly at them like a lot.  I did drop the cursing, but I don't know if I should have.  It wasn't aimed @ Ellen.  I didn't just come up and start something..  You're just looking for me to be humiliated.  I just walked outta my room, and look what happened.

Wow

You get interested in someone else, you wanna rub in someone in the wrong way?

If you are interested @ Tim Burton, he has become mushy @ his daughter and doesn't serve the public as much as when Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was out.

Ugh, I just stretched and didn't feel as much pleasure.

Also, I got a big container of fruit, not the little 1s, when I was out @ 711 yesterday.  I ate more at supper.  However, I just had 1/2 bowl of ice cream, 1/2 vanilla 1/2 chocolate.

Problem

Stop being suggestive and escalating what you tell me.  I don't care what you say, don't push my life in that direction.  I didn't do anything.

Problem

WHAT IS THIS - STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY AND UNCOMFORTABLE.  I am not guilty and am not uncomfortable @ "what I did."

Unstable

Ellen, I don't have to do anything for what I said @ you!  YOU DID IT.

I got more messages!!  D;'

Hey, why are you clickin' @ me?

WHAT NOW  I even know what you said I think.

I guess..

I shouldn't have gotten upset like that.. but I was..  It shouldn't be a big deal.  No one will stop bothering me, though.

So, I walked by my mom and it sonded like, "If Christina wants something, she wants Tim Burton."  That's of course besides this picture, but I didn't like that because I put at least 3 females above him in my list.  He's been less active.

No, they'll say anything and think it means they didn't decide and it was fate..

Problem

Why did I hear a shredder as I sang an Italian song?  I have an Italian friend on Facebook, the other 1..

Wut?

I was thinking of the boy from England and heard something from my dad again..

Problem

My dad made me mad.  I heard something when I was @ to post something to Ellen..  What a loser.  Who does he think he is??

So, what ya'll think

@ my shitty videos??

Compliments

I did a tribute.  Ellen is so hard-working and sweet and nice but why can't anyone say so????  Just because some of you are mad it's not @ you?  That's mean to her.  You should post it online..

Oh no

Bye bye .. ellen my darling .. the pill must kill me

Sincerely

I like your show, you don't have to pay attention to crazy Christina, but I am not a bad person.  I just want you to be o k :|

Problem

Ha ha eLLen degeneres (*) so Nell made it so she's the special 1 what a brat no one else does that themselves

Problem

What that is big upsets you that I posted?  Just that I couldn't shut up?

I sorta..

..spazzed it at them as I passed, maybe just partly me dunno

Problem

I passed some people and got upset and thought of my dad in a tacky way.. but I guess we had a mutual feeling.

Mad

Stop hinting threats I'm in trouble later when I'm not looking.

I feel so gross eating mac so often.

Problem

I sorta let go and stopped complaining in my mind.

Nap

I need 1.

Problem

So, what, Ellen constantly has me uncomfortable?  She wishes to hurt me?  I mean, she thinks I deserve to be punished?

Problem

I said to stop judging me.  You *beep*

Problem

Stop telling me I'm bad..Ellen

Let's start using words like worthless without cringing every time it happens.

Problem

Ellen, stop being mean.  You are being mean cuz I have a mouth.

Problem

Why do you keep bothering me!

ELLEN IS THAT YOU YES IT IS STOP

Problem

I don't wanna go to the Ellen show to fight.. but I sort out things here.  I just meant that I thought it really was Ellen and that if I said I don't think so I'd get made fun of.  I think slowly sometimes or do things that way, sometimes..

Remember

When people were all about if you deserved something even if you were currently considered perfect?  Like you didn't deserve some things for some reason?

Problem

Ellen, you are not enough fun..  You spread negative energy cuz of your racial selfishness.  You wanna be more stimulated, and I can't feel good..

Problem

Ellen would be nicer to her kid, and I don't want her to treat my kid how she treats me.

At Least

I'm not still mad.  Ugh, but you know I feel like I'm shit.. to everyone

Problem

Why do Britney and Ellen not have friends..  waiting for a bomb to tick off

Problem

Why does Ellen think she's ahead culturally, like I can't enjoy myself!

Well

I guess ya'll don't see what you shit on me.

**PlaNs**

I am gonna do Vocal Performance @ Seminole Community College, Orlando, FL.  xp  Calls to make.

So, 2 days a week a gym class there and working out, with their theory which is probably each day and piano 3.

My mom was gonna have me go to like shelters to get help all day for you know like once a week as they said possible.

So, I still wanna catch all of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" but not as much otherwise.. I do like Bethenny, but I mean it's a lot for starters.  I actually sometimes watch her more than once.

Well

I get upset because things have happened.. I didn't think I was nasty, but yea I felt bad..

Wow

Ellen, fess up for what you did.

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Facebook

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Problem

So, another coincidence with a boy I like from England..  What's that for?  You made me upset, I can't trust you.

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***** ***

New Video of Me Singing

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Too Bad

I was so upset.  What could I do?  I was like in convulsion, and no one would give in to me..

Stupid

Yea, cuz sometimes it's for the opposite reason-

Why do people do it like that?

Something I Have to Say

Who cares what led to what.  That's just stupid.

Problem

I said not to elect to hurt my mom.

Go away Tim Ellen can do what she wants regardless of you.

Well

Sarah Brightman, I hope you do have a good reason for going into outer space because that was what I was thinking.  I'm a little outta it..

Well

I know she doesn't just wanna have fun..

Well

My mom has a problem.  I shouldn't have a curfew and be on a pill.  She was mean to me 1st.

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Food for Thought

White people shit @ technology.  I am white, though, so go away.

Problem

Stop saying you made me feel inappropriately.  :{

What's with all the clicks!!!!

Problem

Ellen makes inside jokes @ me.  I never told her to pay attention to me.

Look, I don't have a problem.  Why should I watch your show..?  I do wanna watch it.  But why?  Cuz yer ***y?

What are all these noises now!!  Stop ruining things for me and being suggestive and stimulating.  Learn to talk, dummies.

Problem

Ellen laughs at you if you say oh it wasn't her.  What's so funny @ this?  I don't wanna see anyone!  I just leave my room to fuckin' eat!

It's not that..

You're just picking at me for what I posted.  WHAT'S WRONG.  IT'S NOT ILLEGAL.  Like what you do.

Everyone around here threatens me and has nothing to offer.

Why's my mom so mean?  It's all because of Ginny's daughter, I thought something funny and now my mom is always mean.  She made me really mad inside and I had to do something.

Problem

Stop irritating me.

You're just mean and nasty.

GET IT I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS ALL ALONG SO SHUT UP

Problem

I don't think it's any 1 person, but I was pretty upset and bet you just took it your way.

Ugh

Anyone who thinks Ellen is insulting come here.  I am not feeling well.

STOP WATCHING ME AND TESTING ME

Problem

I SAID TO LEAVE ME ALONE

Problem

I swear I am channeling Ellen as being rude @ things like race and my dad's age..  What's your problem?  I don't accept it.

Sorry, I didn't wanna say this, but I guess I talked @ what I was feeling.  My mom kept on doing stuff.  Oh Ellen don't be dumb and say that was me just shut up I'm tired of posting this..

Why don't you get this straight?

You're the 1s who started it.  I am getting uncomfortable.  I am being told this is because of something I did.  It's not.  Do you want me to prove it?

Problem

I keep getting noises and stuff in my room telling me I'm my dad in a bad way and I'm a girl!  I'm probably better than him in ways I like!  WHAT ARE YOU.

STOP.  You just reacted again.

Someone stop my mom she's crazy.

Problem

So, Ellen is getting mad at me for things that aren't my fault.  Don't you go in and single out to hurt my mom.

If you wanna

talk @ Mrs. DeGeneres you should just do it.

Well

I didn't mind it at 1st, but now she's getting back and I find myself fresh again complaining on the blog.  I found Ellen thought it funny.  Look, why do I have to worship you?

Problem

You even act more and more like her mom is mad.  Just quit, I don't even care what you say.  You're just gonna make me think of some curse word when thinking @ Mrs. DeGeneres.

Problem

Look, Ellen, I don't wanna play suggest things to Christina to be safe, who did this.  My mom is lying to me and doesn't care if she's the 1 who's mean and makes me upset and leaves me with nothing I can do about it.  Just forget it and see if you can move on with your life.

I see you on your show think it's okay if I m.. and get m..

Do you wanna lose your dignity and get called tacky all the time??  What, are you suddenly better than everyone?  Who do you think I am??  I will stick to what I say.

She might not have done it, but she thinks it's funny.

I'm pretty mad, I feel like I'm m.. and no one cares.  If someone did, they'd have to stop talking to me.

Mobile

may or may not post

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Problem

Ellen pretends she's cooler than me, like my aunts's friends.

Ah Ah

What aren't we learning @ the South from Ellen DeGeneres?  She just knows she's in and has a good mom..

Extra! Extra!

Extra!  Extra!  Read all about it!

I have interesting accent fluctuations since seeing Sarah Brightman, her concert here.  It's kinda saucy and ***y even in ways.  I mean like exciting even if laid back.

So..

..what, you catch me tacky and that means I'm not good enough?  Lots of people do that.

Actually

I guess my friend is mad her mom isn't any younger actually. She doesn't want to administer goodness.

So

Why does Ellen get to be all blonde and ditzy?
I was nice.

I Love the Mountains

Ellen, you're not the only friend in the world.

I demand you..

..to stop thinking you're Floridian.

Well

We are all free to love the beach, Ellen..

Oh My

Ellen doesn't like me being from Southeastern Florida by the beach.

Forget It

I'm going up north this month.

So..

..Where'd you go?  Want some attention?  Didn't I already know that?

O Just Shut Up You Nigger

I don't *beep* you collective people from "up north.."

Threats

Ellen DeGeneres is a bully, but I'll show her I'm cooler than that.

I keep getting these afterthoughts, but like I said it might not be her..  Like, she has to always be right but isn't and needs other people to do the simple work for her.  Like, she's never sure nor really in firm control, doesn't "take" things.  I find her soft and babyish.  She is overly nice and needs help in other ways.  I mean, she probably doesn't like doing that all the time.  My wish was that I could post along with others online and that she'd like me, but it's like there's no one else in the world but her Mamma and Portia.

Can you stop?

What, now I need a new computer mouse?

Let me make my bet.

I'd wanna do this concert with Sarah Brightman but w|o Jackie Evancho.

Tweet

Jackie @jackieevancho

You should have done a whole concert with her.

Time to Say Goodbye
Pie Jesu
There's a Place for Us
The Flower Duet
When|If Mamma Gets Married (Gypsy, by teenagers)
Let Me Entertain You (Gypsy, but by youngsters..)
Dream a Dream (Charlotte Church, others do it)

I thought there were 10.

Can You Feel the Love Tonight? (gay?)
Panis Angelicus

I'm missing 2.

Memory
Macavity (Cats!)
Mungojerrie + Rumpleteazer

Edit: The Prayer

Problem

So, are these suggestive messages from partly Ellen DeGeneres, like annoying things happening or is it really that person??  Who cares?  They think they have something, and I'm not sure..

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Sound Effects

A drum smash sounds like waves crashing upon the shore.

Question

Do you still get nervous after you sing for something important?  =]

Schedule

I think I will watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," want to twice, but also to catch Bethenny and Jimmy Fallon and someday onto Colbert?  I saw some of Jay Leno today and David Letterman was on.

WAH!

Ellen I miss 2004.

I miss being with my roommate and having her count the chocolate chips she eats whilst I while away the day in music and contributing to good health-

Monday, October 14, 2013

For, now, I find..

These adults never wanted to do anything with their fans.  Why should they be all allowed to retire?  I didn't want Johnny Depp to.  It's been a rather unfair life.

YouTube Comment

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youtu .be/haVC2NC-608 Vid Re. Wow, you are a really good singer. I live in Orlando, too, and sometimes go to Rollins. A goal of mine would be to major in singing there, but I was class of 2008. You seem like you can really sing. Most people seem either anxious or proud of starting @ 15. I thought I was horrible, actually. I'm having problems with my voice cracking but still. I wish I could sing with you. I'm going on vacation so. Nice singing! :} Keep going!..

What's Funny

I didn't sing as a toddler but talked a lot, Ellen.

I wanted to sing and at 5 told my family.. tried to sing that song @ school to them.

At 6, I was in on music a lot, Michael Jackson and Free Willy.  Children's folk songs from my aunt, songs @ church I liked - Ah Lay Looo Ya..

At 7, I know I tried to memorize church songs.  I was allowed to sing in choir for Christmas.  At 8, they let 7-year-olds in.  In music, they taught the notes, so hard....

At 9, I was in such a good choir for vocal influence and strictness @ the oldest Catholic parish in the U.S.  This was until 6th grade, 11|12.

I moved and for 2 years, since there was no choir and I was scared of the voice piano teacher, I was able to expand alone at home on things like Celine Dion, Shania Twain too, Laura Branigan, eventually Bonnie Tyler and Sarah Brightman, Cats and Les Miserables and stuff, .. I got in high school and was into the idea of musical theater and participated and would wear even in junior high tights and turtlenecks "like Cats" and I'd run around hoarsely and sing "The Phantom of the Opera" on a karaoke machine .. please forgive me for losing my voice! and never recording!  I need to get back to that, maybe the clothes and colored lights would bring back those kinds of memories.  I was so physically fit!  105 pounds.

Oh, and Sarah, I made this post for you.. I guess I couldn't get myself to not copy Jackie..  It was so exciting when she was coming out, the CDs.  What, though.  I decided I had to be able to sing like Charlotte Church but am off.  I haven't been able to go in my old way but think as the same person I should.  I tried to talk in a low, tacky voice, like people in families with people born in 1953.  Since then, now I can't keep my voice from cracking.  My voice teacher was more a theater person, but she didn't teach me lots of plain acting..  I am gonna actually do voice over where she taught til now and I got kicked out.  She was being mean to me and so was the class and she didn't care.  ':{  I don't know how well-liked she is actually..  I like her, she's on my list of people with Johnny Depp.. she would find it suggestive, though.  ^99^  She seemed to like spreksteem (German sp?)  You know, I can't sing because my voice cracks.  That was before I took the private lessons.  We didn't seem to learn much at all in her classes.  What can I say?  She wasn't into the romance but more acting like she expected us to work more on our own while she pledged about the local box office..

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Listening List

Pay attention to it on my YouTube.  It has the recent 1s right now with a star.  link

Why

does she think that fate doesn't determine what happens to you as a physical repercussion and thinks a person could have chosen to change that for you?  Huh????

Why does she keep popping up?

I know I bought something to sew and didn't, and I think Ellen DeGeneres found out.  Now, my dad plopped a 2nd computer in my room for some unknown purpose but some reason..  Now, my mouse is being stupid like hers.  How is that cute?  I went on to wonder @ her threatening my kids and being plain old defensive about if she had some..  I just thought, something modern she knows not of I guess, "I hope you don't have kids, then."  It means it in a certain way, but she'll probably make a face @ it on her show, sadly.  All she does is argue.  It also bothered me~~~my dad turned up the volume when I was wondering @ stuff, like if anyone read my blog.  It seems people just..  Ellen has no reason to argue.  She just wants to hurt people because she is Jewish..

Should I top this 1 off, then?  I mean, some things she just wants to "take the wrong way?"  Heard of that phrase????  Well, go ahead and learn these things.

"Disturbing"

It is suggestive to think you're punishing them by hurting or disturbing them.

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A STO ry

There was a lady named Sarah, a lady named Kristen, a type of smart toddler Chloe, a lady-in-waiting age 13 named Christina.., a girl named Peyton who was @ 6, and a final girl age 4 named Ellen.

There were lots of men out either working physically on the farm, the hard stuff, ladies-in-waiting picking berries who were @ 17 but a bit early to be charging tasks such as that at such a time..  The sisters had started going to a school the last 2 months..  Christina would carry them home and finish her homework, as she had a lot and had never read..

"Mommy!" Chloe said, when can I go see Jackie?  "In a minute, love.."  Christina would take her over and work on her needlework, which was quite a task.  She could sense in the future she would not be able to complete such tasks.  Her mind would boggle from being the oldest.  She only homed Mammy could keep care of her children..

There were witches and warlocks @, good warlocks and fairies!  Only Chloe and Christina could see them.  Christina was in Chloe's nursery 1 day, and Chloe looked around as though looking for something magical.  She owned a small, elegant cat no one could hardly see.

There was a party, some over and eventually to the Hallowed hall.  It was a Masquerade.  Christina went in purple and yellow, and she took Chloe in green and yellow with a purple necklace.

1 day at home, they found there would be a caravan to a mighty festival.

Ellen sat on the lap of Mlle. S.  Christina had a hard time keeping the girls to what she thought was good and grew confused, not much to her these days.

Finally, they arrived, and Chloe was wide awake.  They settled in and went for the opening night.  There was a tunnel of love, once again.  There were witches and kiddies all over..

Most of the time, Chloe was scared, like in the great big, lengthy tunnel of love and cried to others.  Ellen loved the tunnel of love.

Christina went around with some other girls her age she found there.

They sat around eating lunch, and 1 of the older girls asked, "Have you seen my sister, yet??  Sorta in a creepy way.  The ferris sweel was most creepy..  She looked to her left, "No."

Time to go back, things weren't quite so normal.  Christina had to go with the family to take care of the 2 little 1s, while Peyton was going on to be a swimmer and lifeguarding.

There was so much technology around, and Mommy is actually a witch here..  The mom would go away for awhile and the kids would be hard to look over, always so nervous in their pulled up dresses.  The mother's job was to obviously try to resolve the existence of crime.  There was talk of a murderer around, so they locked the doors and half got ready to leave but with nowhere to go.  "Sarah.." said Christina.. "I will take you to a better country, a better LAnd."  "Oh.." said Mlle.  Well, .. she went to take care of her business quickly and had no choice but to leave.  They followed Christina's guide and found a stable place to stay, found a vacancy at an inn and settled down. 

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I was a piano major in college for 1 year with organ as my 2ndary instrument along with voice for Music Education.  I also did violin and bells.  I had been takaing piano lessons and accompanying but nothing very hard nor serious..  I hope to do some major singing someday, am set to be a performer.  Otherwise, I know I would end my life in Music Education, if the world didn't need|want me.
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Interview Video

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A Note Notice

Please, Sarah Brightman, if you are so positive, then that means you will save my life - cannot press 1 button until all the kids with older moms, obviously my mom is like a sister and people of that age like a mom...., until they all believe they are the same as those with kids with moms @ 25 or 26..  Even Helena Bonham Carter, 20, like a mom!  She doesn't know and doesn't car!  ':|

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Sunday, October 13, 2013

Weight

minus @ 4 - am 160.8!!!8!!!8!!!

Wale! (Well)

Ellen DeGeneres is too embarrassed to ever let it out (joking @.)  I posted my dad and am worried he might get h****.  You know, people post things all the time without little made up rules, but I guesssome people like differentt hings.

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What?

My last video wasn't good, didn't sound like that before.

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Saturday, October 12, 2013

Just Woke Up


almost 10 hours of sleep

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Mad

I don't like the way I'm being communicated to with the way things load on my computer!!!  What happened to Tim Burton n el paradiso de Monkey Island with Johnny Depp??  You wanna be treated like this in private?  Do you wanna live withou a private?

Problem

Why is my dad all in my life all of a sudden no matter where I go?  It's not in a good way, if you could understand and hopefully are NOT stupid.  I thought he was in defense mode.  He's not gonna "'ventually" (eventually) "do it" to me!!!!

Hey, you, yea you, hey, kid

Hey, Sarah Brightman, check out my singing backing Jackie: link.

So

Do ya like this girl's singing, huh huh, cuz I do!!

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me singing

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Don't worry..

I starred this 1.

New Video of Me

YouTube

This 1 is short, interesting, and kinda good..in a way.

Fixing My Voice

Well, the 1st video was a mistake.. or something, but I'm trying to get my voice, "to find my voice...."  I thought of something helpful for others I thought, but maybe this wasn't it..  It's going better but not so good.  It's the cracking thing.  Dunno what this would do for 1.

No, wait

that was 1953?

My Poor Cracking Voice

I tried to sound like people in a family with someone born in 1950 and they talk with sorta a soft rasp.

BAH

So don't watch it unless you don't care if it's good..
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Friday, October 11, 2013

Someone gave me an idea.

Tim can direct The Phantom of the Opera and I can compete.

Inquisition

You would like, clicked to me, the space station cuz it's so pop-like.

Problem

I think people pretend to feel sorry for me cuz my parents don't love me..

You see..

I did establish a relationship with him.

The problem with..

..fantasizing @ my dad is when you are trying to talk @ me.. your mind just wanders.

Problems

Why won't people stop fantasizing @ my dad when they use me?  I think it's unnecessary, sad to say.  You need to be more dignified.  He's born in 1950.

I want to know.

Why are people being suggestive?  I am so outraged I could say something that would blow you away and make you judge me differently.  I am sitting here suddenly figuring out riddles.  The riddles are tacky and considerably stupid.  I can take a riddle, but something is rather wrong.  It bothers me, I get very very irritated.  I am already treated "like crap" racially.  So, is this just gonna get worse and worse?

1 thing I can talk about that might interest you is .. I just heard a click and felt something and forgot.  Oh, yes, I would be disappointed if you don't accept Ellen racially as white.  I don't want to hear 1 secret joke.  I don't know if she thinks it's funny cuz it means people are sorry for her.  It gives her attention.  I would know, I lived there.

Government Shut Down

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That article is good because it makes sense.  I don't like twisted decisions.  People won't accept me as someone who posts online.

Problem

Ellen, I am so sorry your aunt who is .. 5 years older than my Gramma, who's as old as Mickey Mouse ... passed away.  You kno wI a m going to NY state to see my Gramma who's moving down to Florida with my oldest aunt in Florida.  I just couldn't take it.  You should have had more time.  Yo uknow, I believe in the afterlife for real.  I heard weird noises all over in 2005 when I moved, am partly from up north.  I know I won't die, but not really.  Don't worry, I found out that life is a joke.  We live forever.  We change who we are and can be more than 1 thing, which is not somethin gI do.
     Aw, there there my poor sweet Ellen RIP

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Weird Feelings

I don't feel that I want to be something made from another person.  I'm more comfortable @ my mom at the moment than what my dad's been pushed to do.  It's what it is, though.

Sorry, I see I put the wrong link..

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I do notice

everyone does get mad when people get attention.

So

How do I stop this?  Anyone?  8|

Cheap Parenting

Why try to get me to be mad?  I do get mad in public since Johnny Depp became known to me.

Cheap

I feel that people are trying to get me to be upset and make faces, how cheap and why parenting after you kicked me out?

Another Problem

I feel some people put tremendous stress on others to be mean to me or else, but this is just people like my dad.  WTF!  Where did that come from what's that?  Care to admit it?  I get threatened when I ask.  Why is my dad making sure I never get treated like a lady?  This is so berserk.  He's been nice, but I think I caught him propelling my life to where it isn't mine, when I go to eat and stuff.  Also, my mom said to take the pills.  I shouldn't, really.  How will I have time at home with my family ever again without those pills?  It's from going to the mental hospital after Ginny kicked me outta her classes without telling me a reason.

A Single-Minded Goal

I have a single-minded goal to again clean my room.  Then, I will be fresh and ready..

What else??  I dunno..  I forget.  Oh, I want to rearrange my room.  I couldn't even sing.  I just felt too cluttered and upset @ it when I tried.

Problems

People keep digging into me ***ually, doing things that are suggestive a lot, and then I feel stupid.  It's not friendly, I have nothing holding me up but being a slug at home who can't keep up with her laundry and sometimes loses sleep or sleeps too much at a time.

Question

Does everyone look like Sarah Brightman?  link

Concert

I found Sarah Brightman not Scarborough Fair where I abruptly at the end stood up and shouted but The Phantom of the Opera: link.
IMDb

So

You all are fools to think I'm nasty.  You're the 1s who attack me!  I already went on a diet and got roller blades, thinking it would extract evil, but I dunno, I just get more of a reminder..

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Edit

I added a bio to my new Twitter.

Halloween

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Except, I'm getting XL.

What's Up.. or Down

I did watch Monday's "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" already last night.  I'm baking chocolate chip muffins for my dessert.  I had a smoothie this morning and at college with a boxed Caesar salad.

Edit

I added a link to the last 1.

Update

I posted new fashion favorites.

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The Flower Duet

Sous  le  dôme épais
Under the dome thick

Soo oo le e dawm ay ay pay


Où    le  blanc jasmin
Where the white jasmine

Oo lay blawn jazz mawn


À  la  rose s’assemble
At the rose together

Ah ah la a rose sawn blah


Sur   la  rive  en fleurs,
About the shore in flowers

Sewr la reev ahn fleyu


Riant    au matin
laughing to morning

Ree ahn too metawn


Viens, descendons ensemble.
come   descend    together

Vee awn dee sawn dawn sawn blah

School

I went to a thing where we watched a movie on Broadway and some jazzy stuff.. then speaking.  1 thing I said was I learned more on piano than anything else.  They wanted to know what standard singing was, and I said it was all jazz and evolved into pop.

It was all mostly old ladies, just a handful.

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Wonderful Concert

1st, I remember trying to soak in the post-contemporary singing. I said "Woo," with a little rasp in my voice. Then, I supported with perfection clapping evenly the whole time after a French-sounding song. When she sang "Scarborough Fair," I stood up and said "Woo" really loudly and in a good voice, like a normal singing voice that sounded as though it could get much stronger--ooh I clapped loud once thinking how we all lose our voices to Johnny Depp hoping to act like him. That was my 1st outburst but sent just for my area. For The Phantom of the Opera, I just clapped loudly while some actually squealed. I wanted to squeal loudly, but I just slammed not very hard and didn't.. At the end, I said "Woo" twice like I was having fun in English, heehee. My dad asked if I wanted to go, and we left early and just as I got out the bathroom she finished a post-finale song.
  • ChristinaBarrett There was a bit of an outburst from all the older people when I said "Woo" in an attractive, loud way-

Loads of Problems, Today

(0) I had a good past few days.  I don't want "the dream" of you trying to control what I notice as though I were delicate yet older.

(1) The fact that I'm writing @ this now.

(2) Making fun of cute boys I like because you can't do it.

(3) What happens is they want to measure how much they can affect my life, like by putting clicks in my recordings.

(4) My mom came in and sounded like she said it'll be it for her at 80 because there was something I did you don't do, which annoys me Ellen's worrying or even thinking she's any Jewish at all!!  So, then I became violent and restless, which leads me to believe I must partake in physical activities, tough they won't let me do gymnastics.

(5) A black girl was by me at a thing I watched today, and she kept saying, "Hmph," and acted annoying, like my mom was a nigger.  I looked @ her, and nigger came to mind.. as always does with black people to me, not that I think of it each time I see them.  Then, she acted like she was on top of me racially, like I couldn't get away with it.  I moved up when the film was over to the speaker, and some other ladies were nitpicking with me but not the speaker.  It was like I wasn't even who I Was.  You don't even have a good definition for Asian like I do of Native American.  It irritates me when anyone picks at me to anything they made up @ me and my race.  It's just an irritation from it.

(6) So, these messages were from Ellen DeGeneres.  Isn't that a nasty sorta pie in your face way of taking out your racial whims on another person?  Then, Ellen gets nice and threatens me like she won't talk to me as much if I get mad at something that really hurts me.  That's annoying, I don't wanna worry @ that when I'm a good fan of the show and her.  She does these things, though, that's why I diet, that's why I got roller blades.  I need something else like ballet or tumbling, but I'm gonna do voiceover now and that's a lot of money, October-December.  I need to rearrange my room so I'm not like fumbling when I record my attempts at singing again.  I can get exercise videos and plan to go to the gym.  It's really a hassle getting ready for and recovering from physical activity.  I'm always behind on laundry|ironing.  I can't sit down and read.  It's too bad I got so tired of my dieting.  You get fat fast on a diet if you quit, with me at least.  That sounds like something you've heard of..
Sometimes, it seems weird what people can and can't do.

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Problem

Got thoughts of hitting rubber Ellen ehrn she wouldn't shut up. Had a good past 2 days. I was convinced she was being mean to me. She doesn't accept, oh no she couldn't have. I mean digging into my race? She's the 1 who is mean bc of her racial issues. Her mom's maiden name might be Jewish-Austrian-German. So, she does mean things when mad and says you did something.

She is following me around, telling people what to dish out. It's insulting and moreover awkward and laborious to report. She is only doing it for Nell being called the N word by order. I just have to ignore that. People randomly would make fun of me racially. Anyway, Ellen cuts in all the time, like something funny on my computer. How will I be able to function?? Like work and if I were in school?

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I'm trying just to listen to music.

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My driver was taking orders from her to purposely hurt just me.

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Problem

These people won't stop treating me like I'm bad, and Ellen thinks she's strong, but she's overly protected. She is doing this, while Portia is comfy, cozy, and spoiled. Ellen takes back telling you nice things. She thinks we can't talk @ our issues @ her..

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Tuesday, October 8, 2013

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You can't mess me up-

If I was going in to record a voice over, it'd be too bad fo' YOOU

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Yea! ':0 make us think!

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Hark! The Herald Angels Sing

Sorry

I shouldn't have sloppily reported my troubles with people of other races..

Topic of Interest

Why does Jackie Evancho look like Renee Fleming?  I thought she wasn't for people like that like us.

Problem

My day is being ruined.  I get over things fast.

See

I got the message from Ellen she just decided that I'd see her and she wouldn't have to acknowledge me racially, racially now that's a sin-  This can't be true??

Problem

I don't know what you have for Central Florida|Orlando, but I was in the office and I came in on the Spanish girl like I was white but nice.  The Asian guy was upset and got onto me, rather a violent idea without admitting it.  He touched my hand to get my pulse with the gear in a way I didn't like.  He seemed sorry later.

Problem

Why are people trying to get me in a hissy by not shutting up and acting like they're the only 1 worth a shit?  These clicks in my room, I gotta record the ghosts, though, the Central Florida ghost hotline.

Mad

If people wanna think @ me isnot that Ellen can make fun in a stupid way you relay to me that I'm selfish if I were famous but Ellen is pristine but not since the 1980s.  I was hoping people would think of other people.

Wondering

Why was my mom in such a rush, today?  She was driving in a way that made me reach o***** but not strongly and with tingly.  So, that's why..  I know it was in a plan and also she wants to think she's getting back at me for being upset around some people who were nice to me though.  I just wanted to say that I felt uncomfortable what came to mind cuz I just thought of things like that twice before and it didn't seem to matter.  That's also "not safe."

Hm..

I'm getting the feeling Ellen is not made out for Florida nor modern Louisiana hospitality.

Only families from the South, now Latinos, are considered fortunate..

What They Talk @

It's all suggestive random stuff.  I was wondering cuz I don't wanna just type every thing they say..

Problems

I'm getting more what Ellen would call bullshit, I think.  Supposedly, I can't talk nicely? becuase I used to get upset and curse but just for fun????  Some people like it.  I don't do it for fun..  I'm not putting on a face.  When am I mean?  I am not even cursing now.  So, there's nothing like that to talk about.  I think before it was more a sincere thing.  Just forget @ it.  It was funny, or I was upset.

Why are you talking to me!

I am not cursing now, and what I did before is already over and taken care of.  It's still up if you wanna ask me about it, that's partly what it's there for-

What do you mean I can't talk like I'm normal and not a curser?  I'm not.  Do you see me curse?  Do you see me bullshit!

What It Is

I feel like I'm being cheated each time I apologize for getting upset at people who are always mean to me.

Well

No, I didn't wake up wanting to be mean to people, but people get upset for the stupidest things and all that's left they'll listen to, which I don't like to do, is cursing at them and losing yourd dignity.  The n word just came, and I was startled already that I got upset at others but Ellen is an exception cuz she's so famous and like a set person, supposedly nice, too.  I just knew someone would make a big deal of what I Was thinking.  I don't feel anyone but who was called something would deserve an apology.  This is rather undue to whoever's pestering me with noises.  I know it's my mom getting back and trying to ruin things again.  Ellen is trying to make sure things don't go well for me, too.  What?  I was out looking for a dress last night and didn't get much sleep.  I ended up not being actually outwardly bad at the appointment today nor before.  I just told my mom I wanted to drive and said waiting for the bus wasn't actually fun - the medicine makes it tiring.  The psychiatrist said we couldn't make it any higher, and my therapist wanted to.  There are other ways I can make myself not as tired.  I will have to find out if I can have it lowered.  I'm already trying to find out if I actually have this disorder.  You know, there are tests, like research.  It might require an extended stay.

Problem

I'm being bothered and threatened for no reason.

Problem

I got some really rude messages.. someone snotty @ a***tion, the noises they make in my house.  I just wanted to say I got really mad thinking Ellen's hissy fits are causing people to get hurt, ultimately, and how I felt @ Ellen saying she doesn't wanna be called the N word cuz I pretty much am actually convinced it's not that bad to think certain things.  It's probably a dirty thing to do, though.  Why can other people be called that?

What?

Who did the ghost post?

Oh

I meant to say sorry again I was perplexed and in a rush.  No, not in a perfect physical condition, but who is..

So

Why won't anyone leave me alone? I was photographing my nose, they acted like I wasn't white and expected to get away with it.

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Why do people make fun of my hair being darker?

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So

Ellen, honestly, if you keep track of my thoughts, I don't care I happen to think mean people who cause others to be hurt niggers.

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Y

Why is everyone calling me shit since Tim Burton?

Also, I've seen my parents so far today..

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So

I wasn't filmes as a baby, but I don't freese a pose like an Asian.

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So

Ellen, honestly, if you keep track of my thoughts, I don't care I happen to think mean people who cause others to be hurt niggers.

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Facebook from Oct. 4th

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me singing "Hark! The Herald Angels Sing" - rather nice

Why

isn't Orla Karron Fallon more classical??

I will..

..serve myself, I think why not, to kids in high school and college age now to provide for them a sorta 1950 perfection base.  Something to base themselves on that's more appealing than what's not..

Unfairness

I don't want to be abrupt, but my friend Karen and who I'm a fan of Chloe Moretz are ruining my chance with Ellen DeGeneres.  Let me elaborate.  I noticed something Chloe would brush over, and I don't trust she has full Southern heritage.  She's a bit like Britney.  So, Ellen would balance the scales.
Nitey

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Aug 8 - I don't think people my age can even have their parents.  We all got "18 and out."  Where were you, LOL?

Aug 10 - I like a lot of women maternally with the same race as my dad and maybe the age of my mom.

Aug 19 - I wish I went to a public school because you can be good and do the work and get more sleep at night.

Aug 22 - Some kids want love, and that was always fine.

Aug 31 - That's the same thing as daycare.  How can you place a biracial or mixed or part-nonwhite kid in a daycare and expect them to compete to full potential.  I was good only if I did all things expected, like start gymnastics earlier than needbe..

Sep 4 - Honestly, I would hug an older friend or caress a younger friend, I am more astute with my mom and also in other ways my dad..

Sep 12 - Well, it's just I don't always wanna be with 1 or 2 of the asme people.  That's become quite obvious now.  In fact, I wish I were alone in some way I feel.

Oct 3 - Well, just go to a public school.  I went to bad Catholic schools..  '}:|